The word to describe today’s mood is, “Gah.” I am profoundly depressed because it’s Christmas time and I miss my husband. I probably should not try to write at all.
I woke up knowing my mom would be busy with her work and that dad and I had a large to do list because “company” is coming tomorrow.
I was eager to get to the pool but concerned about my dry skin. Last night before bed I smeared myself with coconut oil. Then today as I got my suit on I did it again. After I showered I did it again. We’ll see if it helps.
I worked out in the deep pool only for about 90 minutes or so. The lap pool was busy with the high school swim team and I did not want to compete for the open lanes with other more serious swimmers. I fear I’ll wander in my lane or kick them or they’ll kick me. I prefer having it all to myself.
Tomorrow, being Christmas Eve, I’ll work out hard since there will be no exercise the following day.
I Facetimed with my stepdaughters for over two hours and forgot to come back here and try to improve this post. Plus I’m low and have a one track mind at present.
Not happy about what I ate dinner. I didn’t want pizza tonight, but dad did, so I went to pick it up. It wasn’t thin crust as I had requested so I was so aware that I was eating EVIL WHITE FLOUR. I ate three skinny pieces and stopped.
So today I ate:
1/2 slice toast
Meal replacement drink w/ 15 grams protein
Three skinny slices of pizza
2 Fig Newtons
And I repeat, “Gah.”